It gave me spirit boost and positive energy to face the next semester.

I’ve gotta finish my study as quickly as I can. Poor daddy gotta pay big bucks for my college education. Wish me luck.

They say it was nothing though, if compared with to the upcoming semester, the sixth and the seventh! Oh my. Well I do think I deserve a hell of holiday to recharge! Good thing I have several trip planned out. And planning to do some spontaneus-random-trip too if that’s possible.

First plan, the most exciting one, and the one I’ve been waiting for almost a year is … GOING TO PHUKET WITH COMMFELLAS! :D

Bought the tickets in March, last year. There’ll be 15 of us invading the beautiful scenery and white-sandy-clearwater-beach Phuket has. Also plan to do some shopping in Bangkok for a few days. Aaah, January 24th can you come faster please? ;) I hope nothing’s gonna go wrong, and we’d have the time of our life. Too bad some of my friends already canceled our trip for one or many reasons.

Second, I’ve plan to go to Bali with one of my bestfriend, Abby, in February. It’s gonna be just the two of us, and Arlisya, who happened to work in Bali, of course. It’s been so long since I last went to Bali, and I heard there are some cool new places there. Maybe skip Kuta and go somewhere new? We’ll see.

Most excited for both of it! And to add the excitement, the whole commfellas is planning yet another COMFRES trip. To Anyer! Yeay yeay yeay, another beach trip is always an okay for me :D

The rest of holiday, I’ll just spend with long-time bestfriends, boyfriend, the DVD, the sims, internet, books, the cinema, and a little hanging out here and there.

Oh how I love holidays! ♥

2010 was a rollercoaster ride. It brought great sadness, insane incidents, extreme reality, but also new hopes and big lessons :)

I really hope 2011 can really be a new beginning of a better ending. For everyone.

As usual, many people made resolutions for what they’re planning to do or be this year. Well, I haven’t made mine yet, but I’m planning to. Soon.

Last years resolutions has lost somewhere with my whole 2010 agenda, so I have no idea how many resolutions I’ve made it through. But from I remember.. Err not many. Maybe 2 or 3. Out of 36 (yea, right. Not an achievement of course). One of them is driving out-of-town route (jkt-bdg) and not using my niaga atm, at all, this year. The rest of it, well, pretty much tanked. I haven’t pray 5 times a day, haven’t finish Al-Qur’an, still littered, still emotional (very, indeed), and I forgot about the rest. Haha. Soo, for this year I had a plan to make an even more reasonable and reachable resolutions, by listing it as mothly resolution. Or weekly resolution. Brilliant, eh? Bismillah, semoga ga gagal.

Bytheway, I just found the perfect agenda for this year, and better yet, it’s free! I got it as a bonus from a magazine. It covers all I need from an agenda: daily schedule, period-schedule, budget notes, and important tasks. Pretty much what I’ve been searching for, except maybe the budget page is not as many as I hoped.

I’m hoping I would write more often. In fact, I just got an idea for this month resolution: “write at least 3 entries in this blog.”

I have to write it down.
See ya!

It’s amazing
How you make your face just like a wall
How you take your heart and turn it off
How I turn my head and lose it all

It’s unnerving
How just one move puts me by myself
There you go just trusting someone else
Now I know I put us both through hell

I’m not saying there wasn’t nothing wrong
I just didn’t think you’d ever get tired of me
I’m not saying we ever had the right to hold on
I just didn’t wanna let it get away from me

But if that’s how it’s gonna leave
Straight out from underneath
Then we’ll see who’s sorry now
If that’s how it’s gonna stand
When you know you’ve been depending on

The one you’re leaving now
The one you’re leaving out

- Matchbox 20

No expectancies, no hope. Just….nothing.

All I want, is a simple hug from you, my bestfriend.

But then you won’t even be there that day, are you?

The things we said and did have left permanent scars
Obsessed depressed at the same time
I can’t even walk in a straight line
I’ve been lying in the dark no sunshine

She cries
This is more than goodbye
When I look into your eyes
You’re not even there

It’s just a feeling that I have

I can’t believe that it’s over
You’ve hit your low
You’ve lost control and you want me back
You may not believe me but I gave you all I have

…

And in my darkest day when she refused to run away
The love she tried so hard to save

…

I can’t believe that it’s over

- Maroon 5

They never fail me.

Mungkin ini ajang pembuktian. Kepada orang lain, dan kepada lingkungan.

Mungkin ini ajang pembelaan. Kepada hati, dan juga ego.

Kita lihat saja :)

The red bricks paths has reached its end. And it’s time to walk on unstable forest ground.

I don’t know where I’m going. And I keep walking anyhow.

Where would my foot take me?

Life is about making choices, and living with the consequences.

It was the quotation i wrote on my Facebook page. And i have known for a very long time that it’s true, but i just found out just how hard and complicated it really is.

Choices. I’ve made many. Some are easy, some needs more time to think about. but never, I was faced with simalakama choices. I was forced to make choices that i dont wanna make. Because the risk were so big and i wasn’t ready to be in that kind of position. And when i tried to postpone, the storm is just getting stronger. And more people to risk. And it keeps adding up.

Until finally, i made the choice. And people hurt. Not just one. And now i wonder did i make the wrong choice? Is it so wrong to follow what my heart said? or is it the ego talking?

Well, i made the choice. So now, I’m gonna live with the consequences. Whatever it might be. The good and bad one.

Mungkin dunia tidak akan mengerti, tapi mereka tetap akan menerima – @MusicforSale

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything
Don’t you take chances
Might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
Cause love won’t set you free
I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i’m just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can’t let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
But all these days, they feel like they’re the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me out of here
I can’t stand by your side, ohh no
And watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i’m just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

So any turns that I can’t see,
like I’m a stranger on this road
But don’t say victim
Don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy